Old friends Old times

I recently find myself talking to a old friend from a while ago maybe two years ago,and i really like him.Its so funnie when we talk about the old times we use to have when we thought we really liked each other.Im not saying i didnt like him but who knows how he really felt for me.

He use to always tell my bestfriend that he liked me alot and that he was going to ask me out in what not,and i believed it i really thought we was going to have something.Now that were talking again i find myself smileing all the time giggleing and what not.I dont know what it is about him,but what ever it is im really digging it.

So now he wants to get "serious"and i do mean serious.I really do to but there is something that is telling me that if this goes wrong it can mess up our friendship and i wouldnt want that because to be honest i think i love him,but in which way im not sure,and would i ever tell him no way(unless he reads this and he thinks its him).I havent even told him that i have feelings for him and im not sure i really want to tell him.

This could be good for me to not say anything but then again maybe he is feeling the same way im feeling.How do i deal with this.In my situation how do i deal with rejection or how do i deal with the truth?

its just a ride

your heart beats fast, your scared.Its the final time.Theres no turning back now,its either u do it or you will regret it.your just about to sit down and say u can do it.Then you start feeling good about it.This is it.I got this,and you do.then you go slow you do everything right.Breath calm down.Everything is just right.Bam!!theres a big drop.Like there is a dead end in your life.Your heart drops.You start to scream"WHEN IS THIS GOING TO BE OVER"there is turns and twist and your starting to feel sick.then you start to feel like its never going to end,but the ride is over.Everything was okay everything is okay.Or is it??

is he for real?

My family goes to Las Vegas all the time and i have friends out there..one of my friends out there..not going to say who,but he is really cool i really like him.It must be hard for him to cope cuz he has one brother who looks wayy bettter than him and another brother who is just cool and then theres him.He happens to be the the coolest one out of the 3 to me.Idk maybe he got good game maybe he is a really good lair,but whatever it is i happen to like him more.
There is just one thing about him.he thinks he is ugly he has no self confidence.He just makes me want to say you are ugly.I cant have a man who thinks he is ugly.You could be the most ugliest man ever but if you think u look good then any girl should like you.I think he wants me to feel sorry about him.He lies to me all the time when i tell him the truth maybe to make his life better(I will blog about that another day).i dont see the point.I dont know how to just tell him that i dont want no more with him i cant do it.We dated a few times and i never knew if he was for real like i was and if he was cheating cuz yeah he does live in vegas.I couldnt trust him cuz he just lied and lied and lied.Not something you want in a guy.Recently i just told him that he wasnt the one for me and that i couldnt have a guy like him.I think i hurt his feelings.I dont even know.But ladies am i wrong.I really dont think i am and i dont think i could of said it any better.He just needed to understand were i was comeing from.Right???

love hurts

Me and this dude was going strong for about ehh well a long time.he had to be about the best boyfriend ever,one thing is that he never really talked.it was like i started the conversation all the time.He never had anything to say,and we never had sex.man he was really one of a kind.For him not to talk he always made me smile no matter what and he was"the fucking best",but the only thing i ever heard from him was "o","thats cool","i guess".Sometimes i just wanted to slap the shit out of him for saying thoes words.
I loved him i wasnt going to break up with somebody because they didnt talk(not smart i know).There was just something about him,and the sad part ladies he wasnt even that cute,he was that oh your okay but ill just tell you that u look good because your my boyfriend thing.So like on our 5th month maybe the 4th month i told him we need to take a break that he needs to change if he wants to stay with me because we never talked so i wanted him to say some more shit to me.he was fine with it.I couldnt do it my stupid ass wanted him back so we got back together and wow well this nigga talking to another girl,and she callin him baby.;so i ask him about it and he said that he thought we was on a break(now this story is true).im like what the fuck man.To be honest i dont know what the hell happen after that,but we was dateing again.
So we real cool so i thought but i notice that he is talking to alot more gurls now more than he fucking talks to me.He never called me on the phone but he called them girls on the phone,and now the nigga all happy and shit.Im like what the fuck so i do what he is doing and i say "oh im talking to the love of my life", on my myspace status lmao(girls do all there dirty work on myspace) 10 mins later the nigga writes me and says "who is the love of your life".I try to play dumb and act like i dont know what he talking bout but i do and i know he is bout to break up with me,and he does.I was happy i was like hell yeah im single whatt niggas get at me you know what to do lol..all that bull shit.3 weeks later the fucker did something to my myspace and i know its him lol i really do and i text and and ask him if he deleted my myspace and he says"dont worry about it nigga".My first reaction is stay calm cuz i wanted to put him on blast.So i say did u or didnt you?And he says some dumb shit but he called me a bitch.I was like no this dark ass nigga didnt so im a good person i dont say anything im not going to trip.What the fuck for.I was sad for a lil like maybe a long time but i couldnt do nothing about it but move on and thats what i did,or thats what i am doing.
Its all good i still love him tho its so fucking crazy.Ill never date him again cuz he had to be the dumbest nigga ever,but fuck love hurts.

lol

i was on this looking at my cousins friends blog http://edotdizzy.blogspot.com/ and it was just really funnie. i wanted to comment on his blog but you had to have one of these so here i am writting my first blog.show me so me love.